Arrghh!!!!

Super damn pissed off is how I would describe my feelings at this moment. Arrgghhh!!!!
I've been having a terrible tension headache (or is it migraine, ohh... what the heck!) since this morning, and it was excruciating painful during the later part of my work day. But this is not the main point.

While waiting for a train at raffles place station after knocking off from work, there is this elderly uncle also waiting, standing just right behind me.

When the train arrived and the door opened, as usual droves of people dashing out. I stood aside to allow them to alight first before entering the train. But you guess it right, that stupid uncle behind me decided to act kiasu and jabbed at my bag, pushing me in. I was thinking "Helo uncle, the train door is not going to close like within 5 seconds lor, stop being a kiasu singaporean."

Usually, in such situations, I would just let it go and ignore whoever. But today, I simply couldn't contained myself and therefore I blurted out at him in an irritated voice (Yes! I was damn fucky irritated) "Can you stop pushing...." And he immediately shouted back in a defensive tone "I'm not pushing!" (Quoting his exact words.), followed by staring at me as if I "killed" his whole family. And he never stopped staring at me all this while, even when I looked away and ignored him. I decided why should I be afraid and so I stared back at him too. There is no such thing as being fierce or loud = you will win. And I'm even prepared to reason with him if he wants to continue mumbling.. I'm not afraid!

He even had the audacity to mumbled that I'm trying to be funny with him. WTF!!! Sorry for my unpleasant usage of language here, but I've not been so pissed off ever since that dinner session with Simon's friend Jas the other time. Well, that is another super pissed off situaton too, which I'm not gonna talk about it here.

At this moment, I was super damn angry already, but I decided to ignore him and act as if he was invisible. Because I do not want to be wasting my energy quarelling with such an unreasonable person. Moroever, other people who doesn't know head or tail will be thinking that I'm bullying an elderly. Haiz... whatever... I guess by ignoring him, I wouldn't fall into his trap of him, trying to agitate me into a quarrel. After all, losing cool is more easy than keeping cool.

I understand that there are many such people existing, and probably my headache made me in a super grouchy mode. But well... what happens if a pregnant lady was in my place... is he going to act in the same manner as well? Does he think that being an elderly gives him the right to be unreasonable so that others can give in to him? Put aside his age, I think he doesn't even possess simple basic courtesy.

And you know what, when there was a seat available, he was in his "kiasu mode" again and rushed for the seat, thinking I would vie with him. (That empty seat was very close to where I'm standing.)
Such childish act really... And this was an educated (he spoke in english, ok!) elderly old man, and yet displayed such behaviour. What can I say! Haiz... count me unlucky.
There is a saying "Kindness Begets Kindness"... now I really seem to doubt it....